A new place to start

While I was inside the bus

I cant sleep at all

listen to the music

the scene outside was just dark,feel scary

the malay man who sat beside me is too smelly till I cnt turn my head to another side.

I saw a girl who wore low cut shirt,her boobs gonna drop out while she was sleeping

Yet,I cant do anything for her

Since she was too far from me

those goldfish man just keep looking at there

sorry girl...@@..

Finally I was arrived KL at 2200

well,I get in the car at 2300

What a joke.

No why,it is too jam...

Kelly Clarkson had finished her concert at bukit jalil also

Cars are uncountable.

I only can standing there for hour to wait for my cousin come out from the concert

lol~xD

We went KLCC in the midnite.

It was so nice

No one will look at you while you passed by the shop as usual.

We look for the garden.

The crazy cousin was shouting there

' I wanna buy a BMW'......hehe..hope it will be true

so on,I can have a nice seat there^^

Firstly,we thought go for clubbing

but,where to go on Sunday night..==

finally we choose to have our meal at Station 1 at Sunway

Dunno why,the foods and beverage there seems different from Ipoh branch

I prefer IPoh's ice honey lemon.^^

Everyone was sleepy

but Im confusing with my trouble which I get in

Just wanna take a breathe

I went out with my friend

We go for a tea

His friend was funny

totally drunk

While I was waiting for him in the car

I don't know whether the air-cond really cold or my heart was cold

After he fetch me back home

both of us seems funny

I don't know what was he thinking at that moment

But I knew,I miss him and not willing to back home early.haha~~==

He asked me to accompany him

So,we go out again~~~>.<

It was the first time I cry on him

ha~xD

He wiped away my tear

He let me lead on his shoulder

He accompany me for whole nite

He hug me suddenly..so warm...

I like to be warm warm de....^^

I shocked while he kissed me

I almost forget the kissing feel d.

well,He just recall it so easily.

My heart was beating.

I miss his shoulder,I miss his gentle,I miss his hugging

even I knew it cant be real

and it's just a temporary console for me

or He need console also..hoo...

who know,since he seems got something happen~

but he don't want tell so on I wont force him

*If you see this,I just wanna let you know

Im here for you anytime,cheer~^^*

Finally

昨晚放工回家

是你開門給我的

讓你看到我這個模樣

真的很難堪

知道你不喜歡

我還是去做

現在，錢對我真的很重要

而且

它可以讓我更快的賺到我要的金額

我這麼說

我知道很傷你的心

不過我會保護自己

你就別難過了

只有找這些快賺錢的工作

我就可以繼續

可以做我自己的東西

終於也就說出口了

應該松一個口氣

可是反而更加沉重

看不下去

你不知道我在想什麼

就好像我也不知道你在想什麼

你說了很多

你哭

我說了很多

都是我們想告訴你的東西

我也哭了

太激動了嗎？

我也不知道

看到你們這樣

我真的很難過很無奈

我什麼也做不到

在你們眼裡

我只是一個不懂事的孩子

不會為別人著想的孩子

雖然你的確比他了解我的個性

可是我想的東西

你們都不知道，不清楚

只要我做了你不開心的事

你就會說是別人教我的

你知道嗎？

不要說別人，要就說自己的

幹嘛要賴別人

難道自己的心裡就可以比較安慰嗎？

你明明知道他們變得如何

可是你卻用錯方式對他們

你也不說他們

只會令他們更加叛逆

你在用你方式保護著我們

可是，我們需要自己一個獨立的世界

其實

我們都只是一個很簡單的物體

想那麼多有的沒的

自己一個傷心，難過

別人說的話

不要那麼在意

生活在這個家庭

不要比較

做自己就好

不足掛齒，難以啟齒

喜歡一個人的定義是什麼？

什麼是癡心，什麼是花癡

有時候我在想

暗戀一個人，真的可以很久嗎？

是因為不甘心無法在一起還是啥

就算是真的喜歡他/她

那，日子久了，剩下的是什麼

不甘心？習慣？還是真的喜歡。。。

我也不曉得自己是如何的

感覺上，我沒有喜歡任何人

我可以想念 O 先生，K 先生，C先生

每一個都想在一起

可是，再想多下

每一個，我都不想

每一個都不足掛齒

到底我是怎麼了

很貪心～

我變得很現實，很偏激

東西達不到我的要求

會整個人鬱鬱寡歡

可以emo一整天

感覺身邊的朋友少了

到最後在你身邊的還是家人

當我決定不把我的事情告訴我媽咪的時候

我就知道我長不大

我學不會

如何去尊重一個人

可是對於媽咪

我只能說對不起

我真的難以啟齒

星期一就要去kl上班了

雖然還是會回來

還有 PcFair

過後就要在Kl過生活了

感覺蠻期待，也很陌生

複雜 ～

納悶

我的心情都在左右著我一天的生活

我根本就不知道自己在幹啥

他和她

都不是我能夠體會的

他說 ，不要在我的面前說她

他說，不要在我的面前說他不應該如何對她

他說了

She just your M,not his W.

很驚訝，很壓抑

儘管這已經不是秘密

可是從他口中說出來，太~~~~~~~~~

我真的無法接受

他不應該和我說

當我作出這個決定的當兒

很多事情的發生

我都應該掌握了

冷言冷語的

輕視的眼神

失望的眼神

哀嘆的語氣

我不曉得如何去處理現在的問題

就因為我知道你的感受

所以當初才做了這個決定

可是這個決定影響了我

也影響了現在的你

現在的全部

有時候我在想，為什麼我就無法決絕點？

思前慮後的

自私點那該多好～

你的一言一語讓我很心寒

讓我不知道怎麼去面對

我的心在掙扎

可是我告訴自己

夠了，不要再猶豫了

疼自己多一點吧

不要讓自己再繼續墮落下去

很多東西都纏繞著我的小腦袋

這根本不是它能夠承受的

快人快語

身邊的人，事，物開始變化

疏遠自己，拉攏自己

解決了的，煩惱中的

來到是非之地

看到很多可笑的人，事，物

無稽~~

怎麽樣的朋友才值得讓你深交

交流廣闊嗎？

這樣人其實很可悲

等到你遇到了麻煩，你的朋友就會離你遠去

留下的小貓兩，三只

或許是你的朋友，或許不是

這個世界太多雞婆，貓哭老鼠假慈悲的人

異性朋友多也不是好事

當他們有了對象

就會開始疏遠你來避免一些不必要的誤會

我承認我的照片和我的樣子有很大的出入

這沒啥，純粹是照片顔色的問題

不過有些人完全是不一樣的

照片19，20；現實的樣子長得快30。。

不過，我不會給于任何評論

除非那些人看不清自己，卻在外面說別人~

那種人簡直可笑~

遇到一種只會炫耀自己樣貌的人

我更想大笑。。xD

到處告訴別人，得過什麽獎項，參加過什麽比賽

無法入圍就哭哭啼啼的傢伙

要命~就爲了成名嗎？

倒不如讀好書。。。。*我也不能說別人，因爲我也在浪費錢，哈~~*

當他們在利用別人對他們的感情

有沒有想過，那人一直在背後默默地幫他們，支持他們

可是他們卻貪得無厭，只會埋怨對方做得不好

就算他們是我的朋友

我也會毫不留情看扁他們

可恥~

身邊很多朋友都成雙成對的

可是我並不羡慕，也不會很渴望自己也是那一對

老套的說一句

讀書比較重要

哈~~

只是享受沒被約束的生活

需要被關心，朋友&家人都會在身邊

哈~這或許是暫時性的

矛盾。。。。。

不過，對於那些因爲失戀而哭得死去回來的傢伙我沒啥好感

一哭，二閙，三上吊~~

這老掉牙的戯碼，不流行了

我只想說

當你在說別人的時候

請想想，自己是否也是這樣的人

當你在埋怨對方的不是

請想想，自己是否也是一樣~~

*朋友，情侶，姐妹。。*

Releasing.A new life gonna begin

Finally I can release it

I talked to dad,my aunt bout my feeling toward my studies.

At the end,I can choose what I want.^^.

It's a great news for me.

Yet,mommy still don't know it.=(

She is the one I hard to talk to,explain to.

What to do..What to do....

After back from KL.

I had singK for three times in a week.

sound COol~~~enjoy the life....=)

My job had gone since the agent told me it was too dangerous for us.

oh my gosh~~~rm3000++ had gone...

my heart is bleeding.crying.yelling

I cant bought some material for my next step.

Ish.I wanna get more n more n more JOBsssssSS~

Kampar,a small town.

I gonna leave it soon.

It is a memorable land for me during my study life.

Im not willing to see my friends who gonna graduate in this year end

so,I leave first.~~~~Lmao~~~

Many of my friends are asking me

Why I dint went for shooting d?
Laziness....&

I have to work.

Shooting cant get money,Work can~^^

I will be the previous one.

happy.funny.crazy.sohai.

-jessy-

2 April -- 4 April 2010

The 1st day I at KL

my friend come n pick me at pudu.

when I was waiting for him

I just like a stupid sitting inside KFC =D

He accompany I go 河清園

because I wanna find some lace legging

but I failed to get it

So,We go to TS n SG afterward.

But I failed to buy my lace dress...=(

So, we go to 1utama for movie

I so scared that I will lost the way

because 1 U is so big

haha~~~xD

I bought a new shirt at FOREVER 21

I like the outfit over there

but many of them is too big for me...@@

too bad.....TT

1815,is time for our movie^^

I decide to watch Clash of the Titans

what a fantastic,amazing movie

even the story line is normal

but I enjoy the Greek myth

really amazing~~~~

When I back to my auntie house which at PJ-SS20

my cousin invite me to go M.O.S

when we get there

omg~~!! really just a few people over there

fuyoh~~~!!

But,at least I can get meet my lovely dear..
really miss her so much~~~~

Here is a view of the hotel which is just beside the M.O.S

Cousin and I decide to leave M.O.S

we having loklok and kfc nearby....satisfy=)

When i back home it already 3sth.....fuyoh~~~~~~

Omg,I gonna wake up at 6am

Yet,I slept at 5am...=x

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Finally I failed to wake up at 6am

My aunt awake me at 615am..hehe

When I arrived Subang Parade

still got many people havent arrive there

My uniform for the promoter was red shirt with white skirt

The product I promoted is a headset

One is analog another is digital---rm100 & rm150

for me,it is expensive,I better wear on my fon^^

But,it is cheap for those angmo

those angmo so tall , slim, pretty, handsome....

Got some funny conversation happen on me while I was promoting

I get many different response from my customer

SIR,WOULD YOU LIKE TO TRY WITH THIS HEADSET?

-fuck you

-buy 1 free 1?

-is this for rent?
-can I buy you n get the headset as free gift?
-can I try?(while they wearing it,they say'go'...with the headset==)

-after bought this,can I have ur number?

Yet,many people like my contact lens...syok me...^^

It is barbie super nudy lens...=)

I saw a handsome angmo..he bought the headset from me and ask for my number..
But I dint give him,feel so regret now..=(

My boss is really so fuck!!!
while i go back my booth and pass the money to the supervisor

He received the money but dint recorded my sales...

People who bought the headset at booth,all give to me

while I was busy with this customer,he ask me do with another customer

how I promoted to them and gave them the receipt at the same time.

let him scold liao...

5 minutes have to promote with 6 peoples~~@@

The lunch also very suck..hard to chew...

After work,we still have to wait him come for our booth.....

I also forget how long we wait for him...ish ish ish..~!!.....

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I can't walk this morning while I try to wake up today..

I can't stand properly..

I still headache even I ate 4 panadols before I slept

but it can't cure..=(

I lazy to talk since I get sore throat.

my head is pain while bath,my head is peeling..pain

my skin is pain while I crawl on it..it's itchy...==

whole body is burning

It was a 1st time I working under the sun for so many hours...

the weather wasn't stable.some more rainin heavily

luckily dint get sick

but get darker =(

Im malay chicken...

It is a lucky day

after pick up my cousin at pudu

We having our dinner nearby.

It seems a fate

I meet my friend again..haha~~xD

I talk my trouble which I facing now to my aunt

But it's just a way for me to get some info

Can't solve it.I have to settle it by myself.

I enjoy go Pj find my aunt,but only sometimes

She will bring me go try many delicious food at KL..

but nt for hokkien mee today...hehe..

Now,0123am

Im wondering,shd I back?

.......=(