很熟悉，很陌生

來帶了這個大城市
對我來說
失去了一班義氣仔女
讓我好沒有安全感
除了電聯，還是電聯。。。
透過了facebook
我知道我的朋友們，很多都過得不開心
很多都為感情煩惱
而我？？？
感情生活還真的多姿多彩=)

有時候，覺得人真的好奇怪
我和他本是facebook的朋友
根本就沒什麽談上幾句話的那種
結果，那一天無意中讓我看見了他
回到傢就跑去他的facebook留言
第一次面對面看見對方
呵呵，他長得真像小孩
沒多久，我們就在一起了
我很害怕和他在一起
會為我自己帶來傷害
畢竟，我們都不了解對方
而且，他是一個很典型的金牛座
比我的媽媽還夠力~~~~~
不過，我喜歡他讓我在他的懷裏撒嬌
很過癮~~~xD

認識了一個完全和我不同世界的人
認識了他的朋友
抽煙，泡夜店，賭博，吸毒。。。。。。
感覺很懊惱
我在問我自己
我到底是在幹嗎？
爲什麽我會在他的圈子裏打轉~？
和他相處在一起，我沒有真正的笑過~

好累，
好想現在就賴在屁股先生的懷裏
=)

Suffering

I hate suffering.
I hate get drunk.
I hate being molest.
I hate to mingle around.
I hate pestering people to buy it.
I hate lie to myself.
I hate make up heavy
I hate wearing high heel so often.
I hate introduce myself everytimeSsss...
I hate....
I hate.......
all these matters drive me crazy.

My voice & my tummy are getting spoiled day by day.
I can't have a normal sleeping time like others.
My skin is getting worst and darker day by day.
I don't know what going on with me
I'll awake because of the nightmare.
I was crying in my dreams.

I keep stand for it to earn my 1st RM10k.
well,I'm collapse now.
I can't stand for it anymore.

13June2010 0130am
I cried at the entrance.
I shouted for my problems.
I'm collapse at the moment.
I.....quit my job.

My freelance LIFE

Such a long time I dint update my blog
same like last time
I have no idea to start a new article here
Since my little lappy had been stolen
I have no more encouragement for blogging

After I had ended my job at 798 wine bar
I felt lost at that moment.I have nothing to do beside finding jobs and waiting for agent's call
The agent keep delaying the payment since 13May

Luckily my friend asked me for replace her job at Puchong on 19-21May
=)
That was a 1st time I went Puchong
I had been cheated by a taxi driver for telling me there had no bus to get there.
ish~~~~~=(
I don't have any money for lunch and also back to PJ.
William,my friend,who stayed at Kajang and willing to fetch me back to PJ from Puchong.
The 2nd day of my job,I totally lost my way at Puchong.
I can't found my destination.
I asked for so many passer there
well,they can't gimme an exactly situation
It cause me walk for so many street
Finally,a nice girl,who fetched me to my working place..so nice...lalala~~=)
The 3rd day of my job,my aunt fetch me to there since it was public holiday.
I keep yawning there since there have no much customer who're smoking between 18-35
so MANY kidz smoking there...headache...bad bad bad...

After this,I started my mushroom life....=(
Searching jobs.Calling agent to get my salary.Busying interview.Back hometown...
Well,I thought I can have a nice rest at hometown.
yet,I received agent's msg for interviewing as a usherette of a Golf Event.
Damn it,I had to rush back PJ...=(

3 June,It was a 1st time I worked at Golf Resort.
enjoying the environment
enjoying the new partners

Before the event started,I was having training at CocoBanana for being a vodka shooter there.
3am only I backed my home.
5am I slept and 8am I woke and rush to Tropicana Golf Resort.
10am I worked until 930pm
rush back home and changed my clothes
Cousin and I had to rush to SunwayPyramid start our nite job.
3June,It was my dam tired day
We just slept for 3 hours and work from 10am-3am.
Well,we're exhausted.
We have no choice..money money money come~~~~

Sometimes,I felt regret for choosing as a vodka shooter.
There have no basic income with only commission.
I have to drink some if I wanna have a high commission as my senior.
It was suffering to be there.
I don't like the environment.
I don't like the job scope.
I don't like the people there who're so dam CHEAP~~like me..>.<
I become a bicth at the 5 hours.
I have to pretend.
I lost myself.
I feel depressed.


haiz~Gonna find a better job for night after I get my 1st 10k salary per month~