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Ipoh, Perak, Malaysia
■I'm just an ordinary girl who live on the earth,hope for a hundrum life,but i can't live without surprise to brighten up my life. ■I'm talkative but sometimes,I will be speechless. ■I like to sing but my voice is SUCK. ■People who don't like me can close this window immediatedly,yet,please don't simply judge me. ■I like joking & fooling around^^ but I'm not abnormal=]

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Monday, April 26, 2010

A new place to start

While I was inside the bus
I cant sleep at all
listen to the music
the scene outside was just dark,feel scary
the malay man who sat beside me is too smelly till I cnt turn my head to another side.
I saw a girl who wore low cut shirt,her boobs gonna drop out while she was sleeping
Yet,I cant do anything for her
Since she was too far from me
those goldfish man just keep looking at there
sorry girl...@@..

Finally I was arrived KL at 2200
well,I get in the car at 2300
What a joke.
No why,it is too jam...
Kelly Clarkson had finished her concert at bukit jalil also
Cars are uncountable.
I only can standing there for hour to wait for my cousin come out from the concert
lol~xD

We went KLCC in the midnite.
It was so nice
No one will look at you while you passed by the shop as usual.
We look for the garden.
The crazy cousin was shouting there
' I wanna buy a BMW'......hehe..hope it will be true
so on,I can have a nice seat there^^

Firstly,we thought go for clubbing
but,where to go on Sunday night..==
finally we choose to have our meal at Station 1 at Sunway
Dunno why,the foods and beverage there seems different from Ipoh branch
I prefer IPoh's ice honey lemon.^^

Everyone was sleepy
but Im confusing with my trouble which I get in
Just wanna take a breathe
I went out with my friend
We go for a tea
His friend was funny
totally drunk

While I was waiting for him in the car
I don't know whether the air-cond really cold or my heart was cold
After he fetch me back home
both of us seems funny
I don't know what was he thinking at that moment
But I knew,I miss him and not willing to back home early.haha~~==
He asked me to accompany him
So,we go out again~~~>.<

It was the first time I cry on him
ha~xD
He wiped away my tear
He let me lead on his shoulder
He accompany me for whole nite
He hug me suddenly..so warm...
I like to be warm warm de....^^
I shocked while he kissed me
I almost forget the kissing feel d.
well,He just recall it so easily.
My heart was beating.
I miss his shoulder,I miss his gentle,I miss his hugging
even I knew it cant be real
and it's just a temporary console for me
or He need console also..hoo...
who know,since he seems got something happen~
but he don't want tell so on I wont force him


*If you see this,I just wanna let you know
Im here for you anytime,cheer~^^*


Saturday, April 24, 2010

Finally

昨晚放工回家
是你開門給我的
讓你看到我這個模樣
真的很難堪
知道你不喜歡
我還是去做
現在,錢對我真的很重要
而且
它可以讓我更快的賺到我要的金額
我這麼說
我知道很傷你的心
不過我會保護自己
你就別難過了
只有找這些快賺錢的工作
我就可以繼續
可以做我自己的東西

終於也就說出口了
應該松一個口氣
可是反而更加沉重
看不下去
你不知道我在想什麼
就好像我也不知道你在想什麼

你說了很多
你哭
我說了很多
都是我們想告訴你的東西
我也哭了
太激動了嗎?
我也不知道
看到你們這樣
我真的很難過很無奈
我什麼也做不到

在你們眼裡
我只是一個不懂事的孩子
不會為別人著想的孩子
雖然你的確比他了解我的個性
可是我想的東西
你們都不知道,不清楚

只要我做了你不開心的事
你就會說是別人教我的
你知道嗎?
不要說別人,要就說自己的
幹嘛要賴別人
難道自己的心裡就可以比較安慰嗎?

你明明知道他們變得如何
可是你卻用錯方式對他們
你也不說他們
只會令他們更加叛逆
你在用你方式保護著我們
可是,我們需要自己一個獨立的世界

其實
我們都只是一個很簡單的物體
想那麼多有的沒的
自己一個傷心,難過
別人說的話
不要那麼在意
生活在這個家庭
不要比較
做自己就好

Thursday, April 22, 2010

不足掛齒,難以啟齒


喜歡一個人的定義是什麼?
什麼是癡心,什麼是花癡

有時候我在想
暗戀一個人,真的可以很久嗎?
是因為不甘心無法在一起還是啥
就算是真的喜歡他/她
那,日子久了,剩下的是什麼
不甘心?習慣?還是真的喜歡。。。

我也不曉得自己是如何的
感覺上,我沒有喜歡任何人
我可以想念 O 先生,K 先生,C先生
每一個都想在一起
可是,再想多下
每一個,我都不想
每一個都不足掛齒
到底我是怎麼了

很貪心~
我變得很現實,很偏激
東西達不到我的要求
會整個人鬱鬱寡歡
可以emo一整天




感覺身邊的朋友少了
到最後在你身邊的還是家人
當我決定不把我的事情告訴我媽咪的時候
我就知道我長不大
我學不會
如何去尊重一個人
可是對於媽咪
我只能說對不起
我真的難以啟齒

星期一就要去kl上班了
雖然還是會回來
還有 PcFair
過後就要在Kl過生活了
感覺蠻期待,也很陌生
複雜 ~